As usual I just first want to take the time to give much love and gratitude to God, Jesus, the Holy Spirit, and my entire Spiritual Team!!!∞
Hey y’all👋🏾 I hope everyone is reading this in good spirits, and if not quite there yet, I hope we are headed in that direction.
If you can see this it means I am talking to you whether I know you personally or not – God loves you and so do I.
When God has a plan for your life what you planned for it, or how you thought it would go won’t really matter much. You can try to escape the calling He has for you, but nothing will keep you from it. It doesn’t matter how many mistakes you have made trying to go against what He wants for you; He will allow them to happen and still welcome you back to continue the path He has set forth for you.
If someone would have told me years ago that I would have to endure so much on top of all of the decisions I personally made that contributed to me going through so much pain and heartbreak in this lifetime there is probably no way that I would have had the mental capacity, strength, or faith in that moment to agree with all of it or believe that I’d make it out better than I was before.
God doesn’t make any mistakes. He is The Most High God, the Ruler of all, The Creator, The Way Maker. Oftentimes we get so caught up in our feelings and don’t know how to quite process all of the things that go on in our lives or in this screwed-up society that we start to get angry at God. We start to feel like we need something or someone to blame. We try to stray because of our negative emotions, and we turn to things that aren’t good for us to try to escape. But truth be told, there is no escaping, so unless you allow Him to heal you, and learn to accept the process that you’re going to have to experience no matter what, then you will continue to feel defeated.
It would take me way too long for me to share all that I have experienced in the few decades that I have been on this earth, but just know that I have had to endure unimaginable pain and experiences that have taken many that have gone before me out. The one thing that remained is my faith in The Most High God and my unwillingness to surrender to the attacks of the enemy.
I know that many people like to say that Jesus is part of “the white man’s religion,” or whatever else is usually said in order to convince people that He is not real or worth believing in, but I am one of many here to tell you that is not the case.
People often think that because I say I am not a Christian in the sense of religion that I have not accepted Jesus as the Messiah or that I do not believe in Him, and I am here to tell you that is the furthest thing from the truth. What I don’t really believe in is organized religion that causes separation and further distance from God’s plan. Therefore, I do not subscribe to or claim any religious affiliation. God is not a religion. Jesus is not a religion. The Holy Spirit is not a religion. And as I have said countless times before and will continue to say, God cannot be put into a box. There is not a box that exists that He would be able to fit in.
He has allowed me the freedom to be me. He did not make me conform to what religion would have people believe they have to emulate in order to be accepted as one of His. I am His regardless of what others choose to see when they look at me.
We can all go outside and literally see a building that is a place of worship on every street corner, but as soon as people hear someone speaking the gospel or sharing the truth told to them directly from the Holy Spirit, then oftentimes they are seen as insane. Do you not think that is part of the problem?
God, Jesus, or The Holy Spirit is not just for Sunday services. He is not just something you entertain once a week. Jesus is not someone that is only to be entertained as a figure for a man-made holiday in December that doesn’t even actually exist even in the scriptures.
This is definitely not what I have chosen for myself to do, because if you have ever had the opportunity to know me even just a little, then you know that I’d much rather stay in the background and enjoy my peace. But God had other plans for my life. He has called me and many others to come out of hiding. The days of staying silent are a thing of the past.
Once again, I did not choose this life, it was chosen for me. Trust me, as hard as it may be to admit this, I tried doing many things that subconsciously I thought would disqualify me for this path that God has continued to lead me on, but little did I know – every last one of those things would be used for His glory. Every decision that I made in this lifetime would be used by Him to show others just how much of a gracious, forgiving, and loving God He is.
God knows that we do things to try to escape the feelings that we have towards the things that we experience, and no matter how far we travel outside of where we should, He is always there to welcome us back. He is not an unfair God, and He knows that many of the things that take us down the paths that we’ve gone down are because of what we feel as a result of things that we have experienced that were both in and out of our control.
Many of us have experienced very toxic family lives and betrayals and were made to raise ourselves without positive role models in our personal lives, so of course we made many mistakes along the way. God wants me to tell you that it’s okay. It’s not Him that won’t forgive you, it’s you that won’t forgive yourself. I’ve been there many times. Sometimes my mind will occasionally still try to go there because I still find it hard to believe after everything I have gone through in this life and the things that I still experience, that God allows me to experience it all while still having a peace that surpasses my understanding.
I am a “show-and-prove” type of person. God created me so He knows me better than I know myself. I pay attention to people’s actions over what they say because I definitely believe that actions speak much louder than words. So the fact that God has shown me that I will continue to be at peace regardless of what I experience has undeniably proven to me that He is who He says He is. His words are trustworthy. I know now that as long as I continue to stand on His promises to me that everything will be alright. It doesn’t mean that I won’t still experience things. As we have all most likely heard many times over – the weapons will form but they will not prosper (Isaiah 54:17). And as long as you continue to put your trust and faith in Him then you can guarantee that to be true.
This message is being written by someone who knows all too well and is still experiencing firsthand what it is like to only have themselves and God to depend on. I don’t have any friends or family to call on for literally anything at all. I have reached out for help from places more times than I would have liked to only to be turned away or disregarded. I am literally the only person that my children have to depend on in the physical for absolutely everything that they need; there is no help mate whatsoever, and it’s literally just me and God as their source. These are some of the reasons that I know God to be true and how and why I can speak on these things.
There is a reason for it all whether we know what that reason is or not, and I am just one of the many that God has called to spread His messages and I can assure you that He does not expect us to be perfect. We will all make mistakes. But through it all just remember– Stay grounded. Stay encouraged. Stay prayed up. Stay in faith. Stay confident that God is able and that He will work it out.
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Remember God loves you, and so do I!
Peace 💜