Wasting Time

Before I begin I of course first want to take the time to give much love and gratitude to God, Jesus, the Holy Spirit, and my entire Spiritual Team!!!∞


Hey y’all 👋🏾 I hope everyone is reading this in good spirits, and if not quite there yet, I hope we are headed in that direction.


I wanna talk a little about time.


I sometimes tend to think about time probably more than I should, but if there is one thing that I can’t stand it is feeling like I am wasting my time because I understand greatly that once the time has gone we can’t get it back.


That is one of the reasons that at the end of my posts – no matter how short or long – I sincerely thank you all for taking time to read my words and hope you got something out of it, even if it is just knowing that you are loved and appreciated.


I have spent literally decades around people who took my time for granted and did not mind wasting and disrespecting it. I think that has caused me to feel much of what I have been feeling in this hermit season that I am transitioning out of.


This season for me has been both wonderful and rough. It has been one that has taught me so much as well as shown me parts of me that has even surprised me at times.


One thing that has remained consistent throughout it all is that even when I have yet to see some of God’s promises I never stopped believing that He is able, and everything will all come to pass in His timing, not mine.


Although it is sometimes hard to wait, I have gotten much better at it. I have learned patience beyond what I thought was possible and it actually feels good.


I have learned to sit and reflect on the things that go on in my world so that I don’t allow my old ways to creep back in. By doing this it helps me to not waste my own time trying to undo things that have been done unnecessarily.


God has blessed me with peace that has sometimes been past my understanding, and the gratitude that I feel for that is beyond what I can express with words.


Although I haven’t fully shared my story (it’s coming very soon), I am amazed that through it all I have experienced the peace, love, and joy that I have prayed for for as long as I can remember.


People have often speculated on my life and way more often than not their thoughts are so far from what my reality is or has been. Even when I would try to explain certain things to people who I used to allow close access into my world it’s like they would still decide to believe their own theories instead of the truth. So, eventually I just stopped even trying because it was pointless and — a waste of my time.


I am very self-aware, and sometimes even more than I would have liked to have been because it sometimes used to feel like I was depriving myself of the fun that mischief seemed to provide. Of course, I am grateful for the self-awareness now because thinking back to some of those times I know that engaging in those things would have resulted in me having to heal from them today.


I just feel truly blessed that God has been so blatantly present in my life even if I didn’t realize it at times. He has put a calling on my life that I didn’t ask for, but also one that I can’t escape. I used to try to, and if I’m being honest I can still be just a little hesitant about some of the things He has me to do to this day.


The difference is that before I would try hard to avoid doing what He told me to do because of human emotion, but now I just express to Him how I feel and by doing that He always provides me with reassurance that All Is Well, so I do what He says (even if it is after a mini tantrum or meltdown 😝). Hey, like I said, I’m human. And besides, He created me and knows me better than I know myself.


Anyway, I guess I said all that to say…


I am committed to this path that He has me on and I know now that although some things may feel like a waste of time to me, if God says to do it I know that whatever time is spent doing it that it’s time well spent for something greater.


I also want to say to you all 📢 Happy December! We’re in the final month of 2022 and we are gonna end this year much better than it began.


There are so many wonderful things in store from and for Love Individually, and I pray the same for each and every one of you too.


As always, before I go I just want to say thank you so very much for spending some of your valuable time with me, I truly appreciate each and every one of you.


Remember God Loves You, and so do I.


Peace 💜